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Wednesday, December 23, 2009

I came across a fallen tree

I feel like my heart got wrenched into half again.

Honestly? I don't know what hurts more.. the fact that it's final and this is it, or the fact that of ALL of people in the entire freaking universe, it had to be her.

I wish I had a magic wand. And I could change pathways so his would steer as far away as possible from hers. Actually, if I was gonna wish for things, I would just wish that his path would collide with mine.

No, actually, if I was wishing for things, I would wish that I was busy the whole of June and I didn't have the time to meet him. That day. Just kills me when I think about it.

I don't know what to do now. Because I don't think I'll ever accept it.

I think I need to stay away from all this. It's too much. A lot of things are happening at once. I don't want to put myself in the middle of anything right now.

I know he doesn't deserve me because his standards are obviously much lower than previously thought.

Actually, I feel a bit insulted.

After this sunday, contact with him will be as minimal as humanly possible.

MINIMAL.

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