whatever.

Hmm.. it's currently 1500hrs... I'm just chilling out now... I really have no idea what to do now...

I tried to force sleep again this morning.. it's been happening soo often.. maybe there's really something wrong with me... sighs... anywaes.. i awoke at 0830 because, no matter how hard i tried, i couldn't close my eyes and slumber.. it's like.. soo frustrating, ya noe!

I want to upload some pics.. thing is.. I dunno what to upload.. plus.. im too freaking lazy anyways.. maybe I should just spend the rest of hols sitting on this stupid chair.. GAH. except i have band and crap.. and the Jap trip.. and i need to use the restroom at certain intervals.. and sleep.. GAH. BAD IDEA ):

It seems like everyone I know is watching ( or have watched) goong.. i would have too.. but then it started during exams time.. and after that I just couldn't be bothered.. so yea.. guess I'm one who doesn't follow the crowd.. oh well.. at least im unique..

GAHH. sometimes it's not a good thing to be special.. unique.. sometimes u just wanna be an unknown person living in non-existence on earth.. sometimes u'd wish no one knew you except those who HAVE to. Sometimes..

I hate attention. It's alright at times.. but too much is bullshit. I get alot of attention.. whether it be my physical attributes or just my whacky persona.. i get WHOA lots of it.. I guess I could be a little less overshowing.. but it's just me, y'noe.. i can't help it..

Especially if some people think ur craving all the attention.. GOOD HEAVEN'S.. if you want it soo bad.. i can give it to you.. FOC! Sighss... To feel like no one knows you ever existed is like crap.. To feel like people know you WAYY too much is BULLcrap. That's it..

okay.. this entry is WAYY too emo. but what the hey. if you don't like any of it, leave now. and don't come back. This is my life. I say what I want, when i want, and where. And if it's illegal to do so.. then bite me.

Haiz.. i guess im feeling way too bored. when i feel that.. I always get soo emotional..GAHH. I hate it sometimes..

Ok.. i shall leave you with the lyrics to Blue's If you come back.. so you can sing-a-long to it if you want.. (:

P.S. U dun need to tell ANYONE u sang.. it's ok X)

BLUE - If you Come Back
(Come on) Yeah (Can you feel me?) Baby can you feel me? (I got something to say. Check it out)

For all this time, I've been loving you girl, oh yes I have
And ever since the day you left me here alone I've been trying to find, oh the reason why

So if I did something wrong please tell me I wanna understand Cos I don't want this love to ever end

And I swear, if you come back in my life I'll be there till the end of time, oh yeah And I swear, I'll keep you right by my side
Cos baby you're the one I want, oh yes you are

I watched you go, taking my heart with you, oh yes you did
Every time I tried to reach you on the phone Baby you're never there, girl you're never home

So if I did something wrong please tell me I wanna understand Cos I don't want this love to ever end No, no, no ,no

And I swear, if you come back in my life I'll be there till the end of time, oh yeah And I swear, I'll keep you right by my side
Cos baby you're the one I want, oh yes you are

Maybe I didn't know, how to show it
And maybe I didn't know, what to say
And this time I won't disguise, then we can build our lives
So we can be, as one

I swear, if you come back in my life I'll be there till the end of time, oh yeah
And I swear, I'll keep you right by my side
Cos baby you're the one I want, oh yes you are And I swear, if you come back in my life I'll be there till the end of time, oh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah (Fade out)

gah.

I thot there was something wrong with blogger again. Then i realised I clicked on 'edit html' instead of 'compose'.. i hate me sometimes. GAHH.

Okay.. i keep saying GAH a lot. it's cuz i've been feeling VERY frustrated lately.. especially YESTERDAY when.. aiyah.. dun wanna say la..

updates to blog:
- I added a new song... the continuous one from starlightmks was getting on my nerves.. haha.. u can play it if you want.. so no ANNOYANCE.
- I FINALLY put my links in alphabetic order! Yay me! It's always been soo.. messed up.. so.. it's a good thing!

I'm thinking of putting up a play list la.. so the songs are inter-changeble..

Well.. today's boring. No school.. so I'm like.. doing nothing.. My maid is SICK ): so NO breakfast... well actually.. i can go make it on my own.. but I'm too lazy.. maybe later.. GAH. (:

Things for Stephanie to do before December 7th (Departure Date) :

• Do any stupid holiday homework that the school throws at me
• Pack up room for Christmas
• Pack up luggage and bring LOTS of sweaters
• Get permission to bring at least $300 there
• Get rid of fear of rollercoasters
• Bring neccesary items/ toiletries
• Pray that the time of the month doesn't COME
• Pray that the plane doesn't crash
• BLOG alot till I have to go (anticipation)
• Get mummy to NOT miss me (:
• Make sure I don't miss mummy too (:
• Bring Baby!! ((:

YAY! im should be ready for the trip then!! <3>

I just did some tests today! And here are the Results:

Tests: Are you jealous?
Your score: 70

Jealousy? What's that? (65-90 points):
Stephanie Michelle, you have such perfect control over your emotions, it's almost scary. You have a lot of confidence and you don't let things get to you. Or maybe you simply don't care enough about certain people or things to be jealous. It's a good thing that you're almost never jealous, but remeber that you're a human being, not a robot. You should show more of your emotions, so people'll at least know you have them!
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Total score: 42 points of 60 questions

Determine your IQ (My IQ was 128)

A score between 121 and 140: Significantly above average.
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Tests: Are you a worrier?
Your score: 50

Nothing to worry about (35-60 points):
Stephanie Michelle, according to the test, you have a realistic view of things. Of course you worry sometimes, but only about important stuff that's worth some thought. That's perfectly normal. Congratulations!
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Tests: Could you be a terrorist?
Your score: 6

You are definitely not a terrorist! (0-7 points):
Stephanie Michelle, you'll never be a terrorist! Turn off your computer and go back petting your stuffed animals.
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Tests: Are you in love?
Your score: 70

Halfway in love (35-70 points):
Stephanie Michelle, you are not totally in love with Draco Lucius Malfoy, but anything is possible in the future. Right now you simply like him a lot. Maybe you've already passed the 'being in love' stage or you're just getting there. Either way: good luck with your relationship!

P.S. Draco is obviously NOT the real person i was thinking about.. heehee..
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Tests: Have you ever been abducted by aliens?
Your score: 62

Abductee (46-75 points):
Stephanie Michelle, there's a high probability that you've been abducted by aliens, and most likely will be again. Also, the others living in your house are at risk of being abducted as well. Close your windows, lock the doors and watch out! On the other hand, you might just be drinking to much coffee/cola!
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OKAE! i shan't annoy u guys any further... the last one's funny! YAY ME! (:

random pictures.

ohh.. here are some pics we took on saturday..(quite random.. haha)

This explains why we 'strain' to be friends.. see tia's bulging vein? heehee..

This was soo random.. it was.. random.. yep. just a random shot.

This is us four.. outside the church toilet.. we were THAT bored okaes... don't BLAME us..

And some random pictures I wanna put up.. for fun..

Whose feet? I think it was Mine, Tia's and Anne's..(kinda forgot.. haahaa..)

The CAN CAN! Don't we look lovely? Whee...

Joan's wheel thingy.. look at one circle, and you'll find the turn turning.. wheee...OPTICAL ILLUSION.

2e7! My fave people.. first row: Fairuz, Tanya, Krystel, Afiyah. second row: elaina, sally, chu yi. last row: salimah(the extraness..), ME (: , Atiqah, Syafiqah. ((:

The Talkatives Logo (made by joan) that I found not too long ago, stored in my files.

MONDAY

Hey to all my readers! (the spastic, annoying folks like YOU (: ) Nah.. im kidding.. you're not that kind of person.. (unlike some unmentionable people.. mwahaha..)

Anyways.. I just had band.. blah blah.. ya know.. boring stuff.. played songs.. GAHH. must perform for open house. GAHH. can't play 2nd.. GAHH. my life sucks BIG time.

There really isn't much to blog about today.. haha. okay i usually say that.. but in the end.. alot of CRAPPY crappy crap comes tumbling out.. anywaes.. that's good rite? i think..

We couldn't play till 1530hrs cuz of O'levels.. haha.. it was soo funny cuz Jannah said we could only sing and clap and Lian Ping kept singing 'London Bridge is falling..' haha.. den she accidentally sang in front of my conductress.. haha.. that was funny!

Ohh.. This morning was like a hectic rush.. I spent the morning blogging emo stuff on the church blog.. go see if you want.. mwahaha... den i went to shower n change @ 1200hrs.. ohh.. then i gave joshua a crash course on blogging.. blah blah.. haha.. okie.. that was HECTIC..

GAHH.. im like, doing some many things at once!! I have to admit.. im good at multi-tasking, but OMG.. wad im doing is WAY too much.. tranferring files, listening to music, blogging, chatting, plus.. GONNA help Joshua, AGAIN. great. haha.. okae. i shall take things slow.. dun need to get heart attack at 14..

Rite.. well.. im more or less settled.. so ON WITH BLOGGING. yay.

haha.. actually.. im pretty much done with that.. haha.. nothing much to say la..

OH! the lasangna yesterday was great! I had soo much for dinner.. AARGH. sick of italian. no. im kidding. (:

oh my goodness

Well... I have band later on.. so I'll make this short till I return.. I just discovered this blog.. why? because I had a sudden urging to visit Colin and Kero and realised that they broke off! It's soo sad! I think it's kinda cool the way they actually devote their love for each other on blogs.. so haiz.. wasted la.. anywaes both oso quite cute lah...

anywaes.. i went to search 'colin and kero' on blogger and found that there were quite a number of posts regarding how they had broken up... den some guy said he knows kero's new blog, but turns out, kero deleted all his posts! So sad.. okae.. maybe they were too private or something.. but i read a bit of the searched post and kero sounded DAMN emo..

Okok.. so blah blah.. cut LONG story short, there's a new pair of gays in town! actually one's gay.. the other is.. i have no idea.. and the WAY GAY one is soo ah LIAN.. see the way he writes and find out for urself.. it's soo horrible i can barely read it.. http://kenandemanuel.blogspot.com/

ohh.. and one more thing.. THEY are OUR age.. as in.. fourteen!! GAHH.. ohh.. and the other guy, Ken, he seems annoyed with the AH LIAN.. anyways.. u just go look lah... and go see for urselves.. mwahaha..
http://keno-life.blogspot.com/

Okie! to all my avid readers, THANK YOU for reading this horrible post.. haha.. ok it's not that horrible.. but u just discovered what it's like to be friends with a gay..

haiz.

Well.. im soo bored rite now.. Really.. Just soo bored.. i don't know what to post.. but hey.. it's WAY better than doing nothing.. RITE?

Wad did i do today? I slept till almost 11.. actually i sorta forced myself to sleep because i cldn't and i felt soo tired.. but my DAMN brain wldn't let me sleep and i practically just closed my eyes from 8.30 till 10 plus.. then i woke up.. OOH! u would think.. WAKING UP IS FUN!! AT LEAST YOU DON'T HAVE TO FORCE SLEEP ANYMORE!!! whoever 'YOU' are.. u'd better make sure i can't find you...

i woke up.. spent time at the computer.. den realised my life is meaningless.. well.. NO, i didn't go into major SHOCK and realisation or anything.. it merely means that i was bored. so i got joan to help me make a template.. to which i did up the skin... it took up to an hour.. i think..or more than that.. i think im slowly getting better.. now if only i could understand more explicit parts of the HTML code.. like the whole maxim mozilla part... blah blah blah.. (joan, do NOT say anything about this.. it's a force of habit, okay?)

Gosh, to be the only person unanimously hated by 70% of the entire population of girls in Con 2, MUST be tough! Haha.. i feel soo sorry for this... person.. haha... but yes.. it IS possible to be disliked by innumerable people.. (to be oblivious to that is another matter entirely)

Dum..dumm.. ohh.. i LURVE my skin... more complicated ones shall come ur way later on.. did i already mention that i LURVE my skin?

Yesterday, during mass (actually, before lah), i passed around the talkatives bulletin.. (yes.. the one in the previous entry..) and anne, tiara, joan n i signed it.. and EVEN though i wanna upload it.. there ARE some ppl mentioned inside.. (THANKS a lot ANNE) so i can't.. haha.. anywaes.. it said about the same thing la.. 'BLAH BLAH.. love you.. we rock.. yadayada..' so there.. haha..

Then stupid anne had to be all..'I can't believe I can bring myself to *message got cut off for protection of said person* ' and so somehow.. we 'yada'ed and came to the topic of MY wedding.. (in which i HAF to invite anne or she'll crash it..) and HAHA.. it was soo funny.. we were talking about whom i would MARRY (which i will NOT mention for reasons obvious..) and 'yada'ed some more...... which ended US up in the topic of.. TADAH! wedding dresses!!

Haha.. ok.. because the whole thing is soo sick and twisted.. i shall name the poor person whom we talked about.. 'blah'.. okay? (P.S. for the people who KNOW what im TALKING about.. do NOT breathe a word about this to ANYONE) haha.. but it's REALLY ironic if u knew.. heehee..

OK! back to story! I started with 'blah will probably wear a pink wedding dress..' and Anne said 'no la! Knowing blah, it would probably be BLACK! and blah's spouse would be a HUGE flower..' HAHA.. ok it sounds REALLY stupid and whatnot RIGHT now.. but fill in the 'blah' with a name, and you MIGHT have a laugh!! of course, i'm not gonna tell anyone.. only the people who know SHALL know.. and THOSE said persons.. (especially anne!) don't say kaes? heehee.. mwahaha..

Wow.. it started out that I had nothing to say.. seems like i have ALOT to tell... HAHA....

Well.. im feeling kinda hungry.. it's like.. almost 7 now.. haiz.. when my STUPID dinner coming home?! To depend on my dinner, i HAVE to depend on my BROTHER. Evil, unfair world i tell you.. unfair..

hope this works.

Well.. blogger's kinda screwed... i had to press the 'republish entire blog' button soo many times... i REALLY hope this entry would be republished without any problems..

i dun REALLLY feel like blogging... BLAHBLAH...

anywaes.. the new skin's nice rite? i NOE it is...

JOANIE helped me! go joanie!! yay!!

okae. im done. nothing else to say :D

It's saturday, honeys!

YAY! weekend's here!! yea.. blah blah blah.. Let's skip the boring process in which i get up, brush my teeth.. blah blah.. and ZOOOOOOOM.... we've stop! to? TADAH! BAND! yay band..lalala... hmm.. actually that's pretty much a bore as well... let's see... we practised Toccata.. oh.. got my JAPAN itinery.. well.. won't be seeing u guys in the first two weeks of december.. soo yay!

OK.. it's party time!! well.. i mean.. it's over.. anywaes.. the party sucked... and i MEAN it.. i hope we dun haf one next year.. really.. unless they hire someone fun.. like.. Maroon 5? okay.. Eww.. maybe Madonna.. well.. i dun really fancy her.. but IF they can get Madonna.. i'd come anywaes! MWAHAHA..

Anywaes.. Tiara, joan n i met @ PP... den we ate soo much cheese @ KFC i swear i can't eat dinner now!! blah blah blah.. OHH! we were struggling with five 1.5litre bottles of drink.. and so.. it was all GASSED up.. don't get me started on pressure-building.. anywaes... one of the teachers opened up a bottle of pressurised, 7up and BOOOF! Grape everywhere!! lesson.. THINK before opening a bottle brought by three girls with little strength...

The party was SOO tedious, i got bored 5 minutes after it started... cool? yes.. wait.. no. Played Dai di with some guys just to pass the damn time.. den annabelle and nat left... and that left me, anne, ian and joshua playing STUPID card games that no one plays at a NICE, COOL party... well.. dai di's not stupid.. but whatever... blehh....

LALALALALA

I ROCK.

BLAH.

ok.. as you can see.. im trying to stall time for no reason..

Should i continue now? right.. continuing.....

I hate html.. but since JOANIE's too lazy to do anything.. i shall.. do it for the sake for the BLOG.. which was my idea in the first place..so.. i HATE politics you know?

Ohh.. after the whole party thing ended.. me, joan, tia n anne went to the park to take spastic pictures and den we went to 7-eleven and got gulps.. LOTS of gulps.. okay.. 3... lalalala...

This is all.. just so you noe.. yay.. go me..

when life gives you lemons, dance <3



This is the front page of the bulletin.. if u wanna see the rest... MAYBE i might let you see.. mwahaha...

THE TALKATIVES!! we rock! -muacks!-

Whoop.

I'm bored now.. don't feel like going to sleep just yet.. so i've decided to blog a bit..

After I got this bloggie up and running.. i decided to make a HFC Con 2 class blog with Tiara and Joan! well, actually, me and tia were deciding with The Talkatives, the class or the cohort.. tiara pulled stuff out of a hat (or something like that la..) and TADAH! the class blog is born!

We spent alot of time trying to get names.. we came up with stuff like.. potatochips (which i think SOO rocks!), holymoly.. 7up.. bigmac.. foreverasone (which i cldn't figure out until tia told me it was forever as one..).. theclassaboveall (which i think is soo.. SMARTASS-like)... and of course.. joan's probable fave, theclassofgays... then tiara got the name famille sainte which i think is SOO cool!! it means holy family in french.. can u IMAGINE the coolness of it?

" 'Ello, I am from ze organisation, ze Famille Sainte, 'ow shall i 'elp Monseur? "

Ooh!! total COOLNESS! YEA!!

anywaes... i SOO can't wait for the party tomorrow!! Me and the guys are meeting at Parkway @1330hrs.. getting our stuffs then and everything.. WHOOPS! ooh.. i shall BLOG about it! YES i will! if i can remember lah.. haha..

Blah blah blah.. oh.. u can get the link for the church blog in my links ((: yupps.. in case i forget...

right then.. i guess it's time to go... i wanted to scan the talkatives neo and put it here.. but im too lazy.. guess you'll haf to wait till later...

Chao till then!

I'm back baby!

I have done it again... went half a year without blogging... well.. with all the exams and stuffs going on.. im obviously have no time to look at blogs or anything... but i HAPPEN to be VERY bored here.. so i'm just gonna start blogging..

Somehow.. i haf reason to believe that i WILL stop blogging maybe.. next year? Then i'll start again.. and again.. and again... this vicious cycle of BLEHness shall never stop.. and so my dear friends.. i hope you are VERY patient with me...

I had my first ever formal concert like.. in July.. yupp.. that was.. 3 months ago? AND experienced several nervous breakdowns in between July/August when my Drama Exams and Drama Nite collided with my Band Competitions and all that crap.. i was literally running back and forth from the band room to the drama studio and vice versa.. OH! there was this time when I was in my black tee n slacks and had to rush for band and THEN dance lessons for drama nite.. I was in a pile of crap at the end.. it was SOO tiring!! Haiz.. good times..good times..

I'm going to Tokyo and Nagoya in December this year with the tkgsSB! GO me! I'm soo excited!! We're going to Disneyland and all.. Yes.. it may not be a HUGE deal for some.. but i have never been to disneyland.. ever! i think.. well maybe when i was REALLY young and couldn't ride any rollercoasters.. yups..

Oh.. im gonna take PhysChem with core Hist and Elec Lit next year.. i mean.. that's my first choice.. yup.. and if i get it.. i might be in the same class as ELAINA.. oh mann.. HOW am i EVER gonna survive?! I'll die i tell you... but wait.. lemme just say something here in case i don't get to do it later... 'Ha! Elaina, I BEAT YOU!' yes.. if u haven't guessed it.. u can just say that elaina and i have been VERY competitive since Secondary One... and now.. with all this more subjects.. let's just say the competitiveness won't stop...

Me and Afiyah made up some examples of Core and elective subjects... there's Core Cold (and the elec), Core Hot and Core Stupid (or did I make THAT one up..) anywaes.. to pass Elective cold in sec 2.. one must frost up a 10-metre long window with only her/his breath..

Speaking of which.. Drama may be cancelled.. or not.. i have NO freaking idea.. the school's soo damn confusing at times.. first they say it's cut.. next they laugh at your face and say they were trying to 'test waters'... RIGHT.. that is entertaining.. anywaes.. im not taking it next year.. but still.. i find the whole thing a HUGE joke... well.. not LITERALLY for those who are a bit thick..

I've been having strange dreams lately... it's about this person.. let's call him... 86? ok... that's a RANDOM number by the way.. so anywaes.. this guy..(YES, WHOOP, it's a GUY!) has been in my dreams at least three times.. the dreams aren't weird or anything.. they just depict a normal day one would have.. ermm.. sort of la.. it's like.. most of the time.. it focuses on the relation between me and 86.. what i mean to say is that.. the dream is about me and 86 on a normal day. THERE. that was simple.. since actually TELLING someone would be fatal.. i have decided to post it up.. what the hell does it mean? i hope it's just coincidence or something.. cuz 86 n i are just FRIENDS :)

P.S. about those dreams.. no PHYSICAL contact was felt.. so don't ASK!!

Ok.. it's high time I finished up here.. I'm having a pool party on the 7th.. (of November, btw) so maybe, if you're lucky.. i'll blog about it.. X)

P.S. This is me.. Anne and Tiara at Mich's.. on the day of the Talkatives Outing