Your journey's been etched on your skin.

I have been doing the time-wasting, tiring, bang-my-head-on-the-keyboard-and-stab-me irritating CNA video these few days.. Using the main computer isn't that bad..

Anyway, I was watching Tv yesterday when it hit me. It was the weekend. Just a few days ago, I was posting about the week.. and it's the weekend. So how fast time flies? And my O's are in 9 months. Which means THERE'S NO TIME. NONE. ZILCH. ZERO. NEGATORY. And 'oh crap, I'm gonna fail my O's' can be heard from the far ends of the artic ocean. But I can't bring myself to study. I just can't. Even if I turn off all working system networks, lock the door of my bedroom, install perfect lighting (which I still lack, by the by.) and strap myself to the chair with History, Math and Science books strewn all over in front of me, I just won't STUDY! Believe me, it's not like I've not tried. I have, many times, in fact. A few minutes in front of the desk and I find something else to occupy my time.. A game of solitaire with ACTUAL cards, my rubik's.. or just fiddling with just about anything. Bloody hell, I am a mess.

So how do I actually find motivation? Till now, I still don't know. Which explains my lack of good grades. I really think I should consider other alternative career routes. After all, it looks like I can't survive another few months of studying intently.. what's more a few years?

Oh, help me, big guy up there!