SATURDAY (:

The WEEKEND'S finally here!

And i think I swang too much at the playground just now because i feel like throwing up )): just be thankful you're not here with me right now..

anywaes.. my brother is having a party for my 'third brother', Gabriel.. (HE's my third bro cuz i've known him for 8 years now..he's my bro's BEST friend..haha..) AND i felt SOO out at his party.. so me n jie SERENE (my KOR's GF) went to SWING.. and i SWUNG.. ALOT.. so anywaes.. I shall try to be calm.. and keep the keyboard CLEAN(:

OOH! I JUST found a way to AUDITION with URSELF!! it's not FUN.. but that fact itself is COOL! And i won FIVE games in a row this afternoon.. haha.. it must be luck larh.. [ mel says it's SKILL (: ] but hey.. wadever la.. haha.. i KNOW im gonna get ADDICTED.. already I ONLY stop playing when the AUDITION game shuts off.. GAH..

Hmm.. today at BAND.. was the STUPID open house thingy.. we went there @ 8 to practise.. den had combine @ 10.. DEN downstairs @ 10.40++ and WAITED till 12.15 to perform.. we PERFORMED at 12.00 (we SUCKED.. GAH ): ) and then TRALALA.. we ended @ 12.08. TWELVE OH EIGHT!! GAHH! like WTF?! And the BAND was allocated the MOST time TOO! we had till like one-something.. and we finished even before we were SUPPOSE to even start!!

TRALALA.. I'm talking to ANNE now.. and she THINKS she's a psychic and she's TRYING to use a USB brain port cable to connect to her brain... (she thinks it's REAL..) and she's trying to type in her BRAIN.. and FAILING miserably!! YAY ANNE!

HAHA.. okae.. she made me say all that.. GREAT.. im now waking @ 6 tml to go to chuch.. to accompany my DEAR ol' ANNE.. GAHH..

CONTINUING with today.. I went to CHURCH earlier for LITURGY.. and helped with the POWERpoint.. [ the STUFF i had to do for church the past couple of days? ] and blahblah.. ooh.. i feel kinda BAD for not helping out.. MAYBE these holidays i shall PITCH in with LIT work..

SEE? im done blogging! Now that WASN'T so bad.. was IT? HEHE..

GAHH! The STUPID BLOGGER UPLOADING PHOTOS THING IS NOT WORKING!! IM SOO MADD!!

and now.. i shall go.. because obviously the photos weren't MEANT to be posted online..

FRIDAY

It's the End of the week! I'm not gonna celebrate.. it's a BAAD thing..

Anywaes.. after blogging and everything.. I have to FINISH up the liturgy work and THEN go practise positioning on my t-bone.. so i kinda gotten TRY to make it SHORT short.. ((:

Gah.. im getting addicted to AUDITION VERY soon.. i'm in level 4 after only TWO days.. so that's a GOOD thing rites? Haiz.. Anywaes.. i have to control myself or ELSE.. because while I'm 70% free this november.. im 70% NOT free in december.. so i dun wanna HAFTA suffer from Audition withdrawal while lazing around in JAPAN..

Yesterday was funny funny.. my father was eating maggie mee for dinner and he wanted to give my mother the soup... here's the exact conversation..

Dad: Dar, (that's his pet name for my mum..) do you want the soup?
Me: Dad, there's alot of MSG in the soup, you know..
Dad: I know, that's why I'm giving your mother!

HAHA.. ok.. cute stuff coming from thy father.. mwahaha..

Ok.. tomorrow's the whole OPEN HOUSE fiasco.. NOT looking forward to it.. GAHH.. had SOO many concerts this year.. PLUS gotta perform in Nagoya.. now got this STUPID useless thing.. please la.. who cares about the p6s who come gelake-ing into the school thinking 'Like, OMG! This is like, so COOL! Like, Wow!'
RAH. Plus.. they have to greet me next year.. i shall be EVIL. ok.. moment's over..

I took some pictures of ME and my beloved T-bone.. Which i shall post later on.. along with some other random pictures.. GAHH. again.. that reminds me of the STUPID ): open house.. can't the school gif us a break? And i haf to learn like.. 3 scores before the time is OVER.. i VERY suay wan leh.. ALWAYS stuck between 2nd n 3rd trombone.. hopefully im in 2nd for GOOD. but den the sec 4s r coming back for JAP leh.. GAHH.. ): why me?? -cries- )':

I just downloaded a WHOLE wardrobe of songs again.. AND fitted them into the MP3 player.. SO FAR.. i have about 250 songs inside.. but it only took up about 1 Gig of space.. so i have about 3 more Gigs of songs i can put in.. hmm.. wonder how many songs that is.. about.. 750? GAHH!! -screams in fright-

Anywaes.. im listening to the songs i downloaded.. they're SOO nice.. yay yay me!!

OKAES! it's WORK TIME )): haiz.. i'm too lazy to post up the PICS.. (plus i think blogger's screwed again..)

So Cheerio anywaes, Darlings!

Thursday

TRALALA.. it's thurday.. the first week of holidays is soon ending.. That can only mean a few things..

1. My open house performance is coming VERY soon
2. The year 2007 is slowly drawing near
3. My Pool Party is almost here! (x
4. Im turning Sec 3 SOO very soon..
5. JAPAN is only in ONE month and FIVE days ((:

And here I am.. blogging.. i shan't blog too much.. Starting playing Audition only last night.. I guess it's quite all right lah.. But i hope i don't get addicted.. it's fine and all.. but im not CRAZY over it.. like 'goong'.. i dun really like that people are putting their lives on hold to watch a drama about some spoilt-princess and a weird prince.. even if it's only for an hour.. GAHH. okok.. im NOT insulting the show okay? I think it's ok lah..

I have to go downstairs to confirm booking for my party.. then I have to go print my scores for band and START practising ALREADY.. gahh.. OHH.. and I have to go complete mummy's church liturgy thingy.. but I guess i can do that tomorrow...

No one intersting is online now.. I mean.. interesting that i can annoy or something.. haha.. So after this.. i shall make my 'blog rounds' and den go downstairs and do stuff..

I finally downloaded 5 REALLy nice songs!! Can't wait to put them in my MP3 player.. hehe.. The songs are...

• Welcome to the Black Parade - MCR
• These Walls - Teddy Geiger
• Call on Me - Janet J.
• Right where you want me - Jesse Mccartney
• Long way to go - Cassie

Haha.. okaes.. these songs are like.. quite 'old' already lah.. in terms of POP age.. ((: but hey.. i LURVE them.. YAY!

And now.. i shall leave you with my FAVE phrase from WttBP by MCR

When I was a young boy, My father took me into the city, to see a marching band.

He said, "Son when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken, The beaten and the damned?"

WEDNESDAY (:

th POST ANNIVERSARY

YAY! This is my 50th post!! So we shall celebrate it with a song! "Happy 50th Post to me! Happy 50th Post to me! Happy 50th Post to me! Happy 50th Post to me!" (It's to the tune of 'happy birthday')

And that's done. now it get on with blogging.. I did a post earlier.. but decided to rewrite it (:

So yes.. first topic is ANNOYING brothers.. why do i find guys SOO ANNOYING nowadays?! I really dunno.. Last time at least I can tahan a bit la.. now like.. want to kill them all leh.. anywaes.. my brother was being WAYY too SUPER IRRITATING today.. he went to read my blog (which i don't mind..) and kept criticising EVERY single DAMN detail!! So anywaes.. i had to BEG him for 15 mins to use the computer.. in which I kept giving him my 'doggie-pout' face.. it's really stupid.. but hey, works on MY parents (:

So anywaes.. he gave up after that and let me use till 6 plus.. then he went to the computer and BEGGED me to let HIM use the comp! And he TRIED to give ME the 'doggie-pout' face.. GAHH. I invented that face y'noe.. so it's immune on me.. mwahaha..

I haven't been watching TV much lately.. but last night... due to constant ARGUING from my parents, I went to switch on my dear ol' Idiot Box. And I watched this classic called 'The Canterville Ghost' which i think ROCKED!! It's not really a scary movie.. in fact.. it was soo funny.. especially the ghost!! There were the two little boys trying to scare him by making a 'fake ghost' in which the ghost thought it was real.. so he was like, bowing to the fake ghost and proclaiming.. 'Thy Scary One, would thee be interested in helping I scare thy ameri-cans?' HAHA.. way too cute..

SIGHS.. this few days.. my parents have been arguing over ME.. gahh.. so what i mean about getting TOO much attention? SIGHS..

Oh.. okae.. to end off this entry.. i shall be disclaiming that i wrote ALL 50 posts within FIVE days.. cuz that's just luducris [ means 'crazy', dearies.. ] the 50 posts is from this particular blog.. since the days of 'mysweet-surrender' to now... the days WHILE I SLEEP (: haha... by the WAY.. the blog name is a perspective of the way i see my life.. [ watch out! cheem-alogy coming thru!]

while she sleeps is just another way of saying that all my hopes, dreams and desires are mostly derived from my sleep.. because it is said that u are purest when slumbering.. only because dreams hold ur INNERmost thoughts... i have used that defenition to explain that all my thoughts on this blog are REAL and 'PURE' .. meaning they are only of the truth.. well..most of the stuff at least :)

OK! I shan't bored you to bits now.. till next time people!

HTML SUCKS X)

Ok. I'm a goner.. noe why i said that? Cuz it's wednesday.. and I'm at home.. at the computer.. typing in words for people to read.. and know more about my life... so that I can showcase my feelings?

GREAT. I'm mad. M-A-D. lalalala. SO BITE ME X)

OK.. HTML sucks. for a reason.. a VERY good reason.. that i HATE layering.. it sucks. LIKE CRAP. haha.. I spent 1/2 an hour learning how to position and add marquees and url imgs.. and that's only because I learn fast at internet lingo.. if i didn't.. hooboy.. it would probably take a day..

I even took time learning about layering... a crappy process.. i tried understanding it.. but i can't.. i think it's unlearnable.. or maybe i just haven't gotten the concept yet.. sighs. i hate html sometimes.. i mean.. it's really cool the way it makes the outcome.. but i just dun have enuff patience to learn all the things..

Even my own blogskin i got help from other blogskins to get the positioning and layering right. Otherwise.. it would probably be like.. bleh.. everything all over the page...

ohh.. i just spent 15 mins doing up the time for my posts... guess what?? Blogger's SOO annoying.. that the date and time are all GMT.. EVIL.. :( so i have to wait LONG LONG before i can change the date back to normal. stupid.. GAHH.

Joan just helped me make a sign off! I think it's really cute.. yay! Joan's lucky she's got photoshop.. I know how to use it.. but my mum won't get the software.. evil rites? Yes. it is.

So anywaes.. I shall go now.. I really dunno wad I'm gonna do.. but I suspect it's gonna be something at the computer. SIGHS..

lalala.

Alleluia! Just ONE week from now.. i'm having my pool party! And how many people are coming? Ermm.. Elaina.. Chu Yi.. Sally.. Krys..Jac..Wynne..Eun.. hmm.. did i miss ANYONE out?! GAH.

ok.. so that's.. 7 people out of 25? quite pathetic.. :( okae.. i told them they have until 'Monda' to reply (oops.. inside joke..)

I went to church just now for All Saints'.. was suppose to go with Tia and Joan.. but Joan replied late and going with only Tia was boring.. so I told her to go with her family.. and I went with mine (:

Hmmm.. i added Marquees to my blog... it adds 'class' and 'atmosphere', no?

I hate html.. it sucks.. i mean.. I know stuff.. but when you try figuring it out for the first time.. YUCKY yuck..

Ohh.. one more thing I don't understand is why BOYS must play sadistic games..

Is it a must for them? Like.. 'BAMM BAMM BAMM! OMG! I'm sooo in love with GUNS! -kisses computer screen-'

GAH. annoying boys. actually just my brother really.. and some other unmentionable GUYS.. he can 'kill people' constantly for hours on end.. well.. at least he's working now.. so I can use the comp more often then him.. mwahaha..

I guess this post shall be short.. I REALLY dunno what to blog about.. haiz..

Ohh.. i spend the afternoon doing up a skin for Joshua... soo frustrating.. GAHH. Firstly, I chose the SKIN for him.. and he had the cheek to ask me for MORE.. Grr.. and den OMG. he asked SOO much questions I thot I was going to faint.. AARGH. and THEN my other friend, Marissa, started asking me about skins as well! I had to turn her down cuz I couldn't cope with Two html-asking peoples..

Okae la.. i shall be nice.. I KNOW I'm nice (: [and egoistic (: ] haha.. So.. i either help him.. or feel guilty about it.. which was how i felt about Marissa.. HEARD THAT JOSH?! u made me feel GUILTY. GAH.

Right.. ok.. I got THAT off my chest.. heehee.. reminds me of spongebob... haha.. 'I am a MAN! -stares at razor for assurance-'

OKAE! And.. PCK was FUNNY! YAY!! ooh.. i like the part when Magaret asked "Have you ever thought of dying?' and PCK answered 'My HAIR?!' MWAhahaha..

whatever.

Hmm.. it's currently 1500hrs... I'm just chilling out now... I really have no idea what to do now...

I tried to force sleep again this morning.. it's been happening soo often.. maybe there's really something wrong with me... sighs... anywaes.. i awoke at 0830 because, no matter how hard i tried, i couldn't close my eyes and slumber.. it's like.. soo frustrating, ya noe!

I want to upload some pics.. thing is.. I dunno what to upload.. plus.. im too freaking lazy anyways.. maybe I should just spend the rest of hols sitting on this stupid chair.. GAH. except i have band and crap.. and the Jap trip.. and i need to use the restroom at certain intervals.. and sleep.. GAH. BAD IDEA ):

It seems like everyone I know is watching ( or have watched) goong.. i would have too.. but then it started during exams time.. and after that I just couldn't be bothered.. so yea.. guess I'm one who doesn't follow the crowd.. oh well.. at least im unique..

GAHH. sometimes it's not a good thing to be special.. unique.. sometimes u just wanna be an unknown person living in non-existence on earth.. sometimes u'd wish no one knew you except those who HAVE to. Sometimes..

I hate attention. It's alright at times.. but too much is bullshit. I get alot of attention.. whether it be my physical attributes or just my whacky persona.. i get WHOA lots of it.. I guess I could be a little less overshowing.. but it's just me, y'noe.. i can't help it..

Especially if some people think ur craving all the attention.. GOOD HEAVEN'S.. if you want it soo bad.. i can give it to you.. FOC! Sighss... To feel like no one knows you ever existed is like crap.. To feel like people know you WAYY too much is BULLcrap. That's it..

okay.. this entry is WAYY too emo. but what the hey. if you don't like any of it, leave now. and don't come back. This is my life. I say what I want, when i want, and where. And if it's illegal to do so.. then bite me.

Haiz.. i guess im feeling way too bored. when i feel that.. I always get soo emotional..GAHH. I hate it sometimes..

Ok.. i shall leave you with the lyrics to Blue's If you come back.. so you can sing-a-long to it if you want.. (:

P.S. U dun need to tell ANYONE u sang.. it's ok X)

BLUE - If you Come Back
(Come on) Yeah (Can you feel me?) Baby can you feel me? (I got something to say. Check it out)

For all this time, I've been loving you girl, oh yes I have
And ever since the day you left me here alone I've been trying to find, oh the reason why

So if I did something wrong please tell me I wanna understand Cos I don't want this love to ever end

And I swear, if you come back in my life I'll be there till the end of time, oh yeah And I swear, I'll keep you right by my side
Cos baby you're the one I want, oh yes you are

I watched you go, taking my heart with you, oh yes you did
Every time I tried to reach you on the phone Baby you're never there, girl you're never home

So if I did something wrong please tell me I wanna understand Cos I don't want this love to ever end No, no, no ,no

And I swear, if you come back in my life I'll be there till the end of time, oh yeah And I swear, I'll keep you right by my side
Cos baby you're the one I want, oh yes you are

Maybe I didn't know, how to show it
And maybe I didn't know, what to say
And this time I won't disguise, then we can build our lives
So we can be, as one

I swear, if you come back in my life I'll be there till the end of time, oh yeah
And I swear, I'll keep you right by my side
Cos baby you're the one I want, oh yes you are And I swear, if you come back in my life I'll be there till the end of time, oh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah (Fade out)

gah.

I thot there was something wrong with blogger again. Then i realised I clicked on 'edit html' instead of 'compose'.. i hate me sometimes. GAHH.

Okay.. i keep saying GAH a lot. it's cuz i've been feeling VERY frustrated lately.. especially YESTERDAY when.. aiyah.. dun wanna say la..

updates to blog:
- I added a new song... the continuous one from starlightmks was getting on my nerves.. haha.. u can play it if you want.. so no ANNOYANCE.
- I FINALLY put my links in alphabetic order! Yay me! It's always been soo.. messed up.. so.. it's a good thing!

I'm thinking of putting up a play list la.. so the songs are inter-changeble..

Well.. today's boring. No school.. so I'm like.. doing nothing.. My maid is SICK ): so NO breakfast... well actually.. i can go make it on my own.. but I'm too lazy.. maybe later.. GAH. (:

Things for Stephanie to do before December 7th (Departure Date) :

• Do any stupid holiday homework that the school throws at me
• Pack up room for Christmas
• Pack up luggage and bring LOTS of sweaters
• Get permission to bring at least $300 there
• Get rid of fear of rollercoasters
• Bring neccesary items/ toiletries
• Pray that the time of the month doesn't COME
• Pray that the plane doesn't crash
• BLOG alot till I have to go (anticipation)
• Get mummy to NOT miss me (:
• Make sure I don't miss mummy too (:
• Bring Baby!! ((:

YAY! im should be ready for the trip then!! <3>

I just did some tests today! And here are the Results:

Tests: Are you jealous?
Your score: 70

Jealousy? What's that? (65-90 points):
Stephanie Michelle, you have such perfect control over your emotions, it's almost scary. You have a lot of confidence and you don't let things get to you. Or maybe you simply don't care enough about certain people or things to be jealous. It's a good thing that you're almost never jealous, but remeber that you're a human being, not a robot. You should show more of your emotions, so people'll at least know you have them!
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Total score: 42 points of 60 questions

Determine your IQ (My IQ was 128)

A score between 121 and 140: Significantly above average.
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Tests: Are you a worrier?
Your score: 50

Nothing to worry about (35-60 points):
Stephanie Michelle, according to the test, you have a realistic view of things. Of course you worry sometimes, but only about important stuff that's worth some thought. That's perfectly normal. Congratulations!
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Tests: Could you be a terrorist?
Your score: 6

You are definitely not a terrorist! (0-7 points):
Stephanie Michelle, you'll never be a terrorist! Turn off your computer and go back petting your stuffed animals.
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Tests: Are you in love?
Your score: 70

Halfway in love (35-70 points):
Stephanie Michelle, you are not totally in love with Draco Lucius Malfoy, but anything is possible in the future. Right now you simply like him a lot. Maybe you've already passed the 'being in love' stage or you're just getting there. Either way: good luck with your relationship!

P.S. Draco is obviously NOT the real person i was thinking about.. heehee..
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Tests: Have you ever been abducted by aliens?
Your score: 62

Abductee (46-75 points):
Stephanie Michelle, there's a high probability that you've been abducted by aliens, and most likely will be again. Also, the others living in your house are at risk of being abducted as well. Close your windows, lock the doors and watch out! On the other hand, you might just be drinking to much coffee/cola!
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OKAE! i shan't annoy u guys any further... the last one's funny! YAY ME! (:

random pictures.

ohh.. here are some pics we took on saturday..(quite random.. haha)

This explains why we 'strain' to be friends.. see tia's bulging vein? heehee..

This was soo random.. it was.. random.. yep. just a random shot.

This is us four.. outside the church toilet.. we were THAT bored okaes... don't BLAME us..

And some random pictures I wanna put up.. for fun..

Whose feet? I think it was Mine, Tia's and Anne's..(kinda forgot.. haahaa..)

The CAN CAN! Don't we look lovely? Whee...

Joan's wheel thingy.. look at one circle, and you'll find the turn turning.. wheee...OPTICAL ILLUSION.

2e7! My fave people.. first row: Fairuz, Tanya, Krystel, Afiyah. second row: elaina, sally, chu yi. last row: salimah(the extraness..), ME (: , Atiqah, Syafiqah. ((:

The Talkatives Logo (made by joan) that I found not too long ago, stored in my files.

MONDAY

Hey to all my readers! (the spastic, annoying folks like YOU (: ) Nah.. im kidding.. you're not that kind of person.. (unlike some unmentionable people.. mwahaha..)

Anyways.. I just had band.. blah blah.. ya know.. boring stuff.. played songs.. GAHH. must perform for open house. GAHH. can't play 2nd.. GAHH. my life sucks BIG time.

There really isn't much to blog about today.. haha. okay i usually say that.. but in the end.. alot of CRAPPY crappy crap comes tumbling out.. anywaes.. that's good rite? i think..

We couldn't play till 1530hrs cuz of O'levels.. haha.. it was soo funny cuz Jannah said we could only sing and clap and Lian Ping kept singing 'London Bridge is falling..' haha.. den she accidentally sang in front of my conductress.. haha.. that was funny!

Ohh.. This morning was like a hectic rush.. I spent the morning blogging emo stuff on the church blog.. go see if you want.. mwahaha... den i went to shower n change @ 1200hrs.. ohh.. then i gave joshua a crash course on blogging.. blah blah.. haha.. okie.. that was HECTIC..

GAHH.. im like, doing some many things at once!! I have to admit.. im good at multi-tasking, but OMG.. wad im doing is WAY too much.. tranferring files, listening to music, blogging, chatting, plus.. GONNA help Joshua, AGAIN. great. haha.. okae. i shall take things slow.. dun need to get heart attack at 14..

Rite.. well.. im more or less settled.. so ON WITH BLOGGING. yay.

haha.. actually.. im pretty much done with that.. haha.. nothing much to say la..

OH! the lasangna yesterday was great! I had soo much for dinner.. AARGH. sick of italian. no. im kidding. (:

oh my goodness

Well... I have band later on.. so I'll make this short till I return.. I just discovered this blog.. why? because I had a sudden urging to visit Colin and Kero and realised that they broke off! It's soo sad! I think it's kinda cool the way they actually devote their love for each other on blogs.. so haiz.. wasted la.. anywaes both oso quite cute lah...

anywaes.. i went to search 'colin and kero' on blogger and found that there were quite a number of posts regarding how they had broken up... den some guy said he knows kero's new blog, but turns out, kero deleted all his posts! So sad.. okae.. maybe they were too private or something.. but i read a bit of the searched post and kero sounded DAMN emo..

Okok.. so blah blah.. cut LONG story short, there's a new pair of gays in town! actually one's gay.. the other is.. i have no idea.. and the WAY GAY one is soo ah LIAN.. see the way he writes and find out for urself.. it's soo horrible i can barely read it.. http://kenandemanuel.blogspot.com/

ohh.. and one more thing.. THEY are OUR age.. as in.. fourteen!! GAHH.. ohh.. and the other guy, Ken, he seems annoyed with the AH LIAN.. anyways.. u just go look lah... and go see for urselves.. mwahaha..
http://keno-life.blogspot.com/

Okie! to all my avid readers, THANK YOU for reading this horrible post.. haha.. ok it's not that horrible.. but u just discovered what it's like to be friends with a gay..