If you're not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?

I'm so new at this relationship thing. It's going well but I feel like I'm constantly navigating myself through my own self-destructive thoughts.

It's funny because we're both not the best at relationships. And I guess that's great, because it's not me leading him, or him leading me, it's us, holding the other person's hand, and walking side-by-side.

'The more time I spend with you, the longer these next 3 months will be.' 

He said this in a quiet voice, as we both were drifting off to sleep. 

I feel like I'm learning about him every day. Like, how every time we text, his replies tend to be rather short and seemingly dismissive. I used to think that maybe I liked him too much too fast and he was getting overwhelmed. Then I found out that he thought of me constantly. That I was always on his mind. And it's obvious by the way he acts around me. So he's just not a man of many words. He prefers to show it. And that's a lot better in every way.

I think I could fall hard. And I'm so afraid because I've fallen hard before and it has not ended well. And this time, I feel like if and when I do fall hard, he'll be there to catch me. 

I gave him a spare toothbrush to use this morning. The last 2 times I did that, the relationship sort of broke down soon after. Here's to hoping the toothbrush is kept there and used.