I want something else to get me through this life

Second post of the day! I don't normally do this, really.

But I'm a bit tired from doing work and this is my break.

I wonder if I will ever figure out what goes on in the mind of men.

Of course, in the same way that guys will never be able to figure us out, I suppose it's fair to say we will always be playing this game of 'He said WHAT?!'

It's just a bit annoying because I thought I already kinda made my peace with the fact that he probably doesn't like me, at least not in that way.

And then he comes right back and says things that make my heart go 'ba DUM. ba DUM.'

A part of me obviously wishes he'll come right out and say it, whether it be a bump into the pit of Friend Zone, or a slide into the realm of 'potential girlfriend'.

But with everything in life, it's often not straight-forward and hazard-free.

So here I am, contemplating the last snippets of our conversation like a 15-year-old teenager.

Remember in the last week or so, I posted something about being able to have the feeling of infatuation? Yes, that's the one. Even with all the uncertainty I'm feeling now, you know what? It's a good uncertain. Like, in a way, there's no bad side to this. It's something cutesy that may or may not turn into something more.

And if it doesn't turn into anything? Then there you go. I suppose I'll move on.

Hmm...

Life is hilarious, really.

And sometimes, it's just mean.