Saying

Yar.. so anyway.. it's christmas eve.. again.. yar... a gurl can only suffer thru so many 'Tis' the Season to be jolly!' and 'falalalalalalalala!' over and over again. Maybe a martini will sooth this gurl down.. too bad dere's an age limit... haiz.. can't u just imagine? having a nice drink shot, lounging on a soft couch, staring at the blazing fireplace. pure heaven. of course im not some spoiled rich tai tai person who spends her life going to tea parties sipping chrysenthenum or camomile... i've got my whole life ahead of me..
so anyway im gonna be Sec2 in say.. 10 days. which means im gonna get juniors.. lil' ppl fresh from primary school where they ruled everyone. in 10 days they shall be the 'rulees'... haha.. joke.
i rebonded my hair too for those who still dunno.. so far only a handful know of this.. i plan to keep the matter quiet for a while..well actually since i already worte it here den forget it.. i can sense stress.. from me nonetheless.. my band concert's in 6 days.. well actually 5 days 2hours and 5mins.. ok.. so anyway.. im also playing for the sec1's cca promo day.. whee.. haha.. ok.. gtg now.. merry christams people!

Yawns..

Should i make a new blog skin? Nahh.. not now la.. hmm... im really bored.. btw.. u may enter my friendster profile by clicking on this link here... yup.. ok den.. im bored.. it's 7 days to christmas.. im fully booked the WHOLE week! band and sch stuff... bleerrhs.. haiz.. haven't even bot sch bks yet.. sighs..guess im gonna leave now.. very tired.. slept at 1am lat nite after 2 Dvds.. ms congeniality and corspe bride.. haiz.. ok den.. gonna leave now.. bye..

back and kicking [quite hard]

Wow.. I am writing again.. which is good of course.. it's real late.. gonna sleep after this [ a phrase i kept repeating for the last half hour] haha.. of course i read some fan fiction.. Wldn't last w/o it.. yupps..
can seriously conclude that i have mad addiction.. but it's fine i guess.. once went two wks w/o reading it.. i can quit. Of course addicts all say that dun they? Yup... My christmas present to the most wonderfulest bestest greatest[now that's a word] person in my life? A bottle of RM80 perfume from The Body Shop. Who is said person? Me. Duh.
Ok.. i get proud alot.. a trait not oftenly positive, obviously.. I got gufts for everyone this X'mas.. so happy cuz' i was previously wondering where to get spare cash.. u shd have seen the methods i used to get cash.. in the end i got nothing.. haiz.. anyway a trip to malaysia proved neccessary bcuz i got sumting for everyone.. how? Why, my aunt of course.. got RM200 in the bus on the way.. i'll make it up to her obviously.. unlike me not to..
Nothing impressive enough for me to mention in my blog. The Penang/KL trip was quite a serious disappointment.. i thot the Penang tour was gonna be exciting.. a couple trips to temples and 'famous' stores where prices were secretly higher than other shops was all one could take. in another word ? Boring.
I shall tell you about an encouter to 'terrifying' snake temple. It was the last stop on our itinerary.. also the first thing on my list i'd wanted to see.. but obviously it was like.. Best for Last. Oh well.. good things come to those who wait. Waiting in anticipation was something i did not specilize in.. as in.. i detested it. On the way i could not stop thinking about the snake temple. The tour guide told us it would be full of snakes.. well obviously.. but i meant crawling-on-the-ground-slithering-everywhere-even-the-male-toilets kind of snakes. During the 'wait' i switched from omigosh-im-gonna-see-real-moving-snakes-on-the-ground-yay to omigosh-im-gonna-see-real-moving-snakes-on-the-ground-im-too-scared Ok so long story short, when we reached i contemplated whether to step in or slowly wait for the right moment. All the bloody snakes i saw were either fake ones or some 'sleeping', dead-looking snakes coiled around rods on the altars which i cldn't touch anyway. Oh yes, not to mention some caged vipers which looked unreal and a photo taking session with two seriously small vipers. Oh-so-fun.
Well.. anyway the trip was a total turnover and i somewhat cldn't wait for the bus home. Of course we missed the bus anyway and HAD to take another one.. much later..
Ok den.. it's seriously Zzzz time. So i'll go now. Au Revior!

revenge was on my mind...

Ok this is something i came up with... it's totally impromptu and hopefully original...

Revenge was on my mind...

I wrapped the half-eaten sandwich in a plastic bag and stuffed it into the front compartment of my backpack. He was walking towards the building already and i still had yet to figure out what to do. I only saw him as a target, nothing more. I could imagine the cheesy intense 'scary' music playing in the background as I paced myself. Right now, Impromptu was my middle name and that was how I was gonna play it. The images that flooded my already occupied mind were not helping either. I saw him killing my baby sister and setting her husband on fire while he tied their only child to a chair and gagged her with a cloth soaked in kerosene.
He was planning on killing the child last but the quick-thinking 14-year-old had managed to set the ropes binding her loose, waiting anxiously for the right moment to escape. That moment came when he strolled towards her with a lighter in his hand. In a flash, she had stood up, grabbed the cloth from her mouth and threw it at him, her actions so quick he missed it when the kerosene soaking the cloth touch the tip of the flamed lighter and created what could be seen as a massive fireball.
My niece could only comfort herself and repeat that it was impossible to save her already dead parents. We found her crawling on the deserted streets of the neighbourhood after we realised what had happened. It was all too late. That inhuman, sadistic man had escaped the scene with a charred arm and broken limbs.
He was said to be heavily mentally affected when he killed my sister and brother-in-law, and his arm had to be amputated. Only getting a sentence of 15 years, the lawyers all agreed that he could be released if proven he was no longer insane.
10 years had passed. Diannah Svelters, my now 23-year-old niece, still suffers from traumatic nightmares of the day she plainly saw her parents get killed. Dia (pronounced Dee-yah)had a boyfriend of 2 years. She told me she did not really blame the man who killed her parents, after all, he was clueless and truly sorry about what he did. I, however, only had revenge on my mind...

OK.. it's short.. but it's really thrilling dun cha think?

My life.. is sooo perfect!!!

"Well, I'm gonna sing the 'My life is perfect' song. My life... is sooo perfect!"

I got this phrase from Professor Utonium in The Powerpuff Girls. Ok, this is so not the entry wen we tokk abt how i still watch that show, we can do dat later... this is is very ironic. it tokks abt my life in the most sarcastic way i know. The phrase is a total opposite of what my life is.. actually.. wad everyone's life is. So in any case, i find this phrase absolutely mind-boggling.

So yes, anyway.. today is Sunday.. my parents are coming home at 6pm... it is now currently 3.29pm. [I am very precise ok?] Which mean there is exactly 2hours and 31minutes to their arrival... haiz.. really miss them...
The reunion is on tueday and monday's beach day at ECP. Which leaves wednesday free to my own will because thursday is Penang day! Which also means wednesday is pack up both house and clothes. Fun. So that leaves me booked 100% till next next tuesday when i come back. Sweet!

I am finally finished with skin no. 234. Hopefully i can live wif this skin till at LEAST next yr.. maybe i'll make a skin on my burfdae.. i do noe one thing.. once the sch yr starts i'll be neck-high in books, books and a bass trombone. Haha...
So it's beach day tml.. my senior told me how evil they would be.. Im kinda scared.. but i'll be fine... hopefully it's more fun than they say... Brr... shivering....
Ok then... I guess im done here... not much to say... wow.. ok den.. till next time... Adios!

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Sweet entry..

Wanna know something? I have been playing around with my blog skin for days now.. it's like.. i am soo not satisfied with my skin! which is like.. kinda true... it's hard to make skins u noe.. i have excruciatingly limited sources... therefore when i make a skin i scream in delight because i made a skin! haha.. right now.. my blog is kinda plain.. it's good enuff 4 me la.. i like plain.. kinda.. well.. it's abt 11.. how time flies..

well.. there's band tml.. dun feel like going... can i take a day's break? haiz... i dun think so... wad excuse shd i gif.. 'im too sian' haha.. concert day is drawing even closer and im still struggling wif sum pieces..
Should i just not play? But it would be fun.. and really cool... Haiz... my seniors won't even be coming tml.. just me as the only 3rd t-b0ne.. whee...

i just finished updating my template AGAIN... added sum stuff... i think it came out wrong.. will fix it sumtime.. i guess... just wanna relax now.. -sighs- i feel so blah these days... like my life became the closest example of a 'wateva' statement in less a span of days... did that statement come out rite? hope so... haiz... im just chilling now.. ignoring wateva comes my way.. hopefully i can face it tml morning... hate mornings.. just not a morning person.. I shall repeat that... i am NOT someone who WAKES at 7 feeling like it's a whole new morning and such... i AWAKE at 7 feeling like i slept for only 10 minutes... yup.. dat's the truth gurls.. live and bear...

i cut my own fringe again.. i think it looks fab... i could be a hairstylist in the future... well.. as long as i remember not to use the wrong type of scissors again.. the last time i cut my hair.. i used craft scissors.. yup... it grew out tho.. thankfully..
Went to concourse to get christmas season charging into the de Souza household.. mainly bought a new tree and decor.. oh yes.. did i mention the new business my bro decide to go into.. nvm den.. shan't mention it.. haha... it's exactly 11.14pm.. im currently sitting at the balcony on a blue desk chair typing maddeningly at a piece of 21st century technology... wad a life...

my mum decided to get a housekeeper instead of a maid.. im not complaining.. as long as i get my room clean i dun care.. i guess that's how spoiled i am.. no maid in less than a week and my room's turned into Gulliver's trash bin. I shan't go into details... embarrassing enuff... i guess having a maid about 11 yrs of my very short life meant getting used to having one. i didn't have a maid during P3 & 4 but i still had my auntie.. haiz... so spoiled..

Gonna watch Chicken Little wif Celestia.. haha.. at Princess @ Bedok.. cheap tickets really.. haha.. Band. Tml. Band. Hope it isn't tiring.. actually.. i shall feverishly pray that it isn't. OK.. the stupid clock has sky rocketed to 11.21pm oh no! yer.. wateva.. haha..

Rite. Well, i guess it IS abt time i went snoozing off into Dream world where my only dream companion is Draconis Lucius Malfoy.. not that im complaining or anything.. rites.. well then.. off to bed with me! Aloha!

Updates

A Love Philosophy

What is Love? No... I am not going to say it is kind.. gentle.. that you can find in the bible or something like that. Love for me is something you take for granted. I read this story just a few hours ago to pass time with. It was quite a nice story but there was something that bothered me in it.
In the story, the Prince is engaged to a Princess from the neighbouring country but he is in love with his maid. The Princess then asked her brother if he could 'fall in love' with said maid... actually this is pretty much the conversation between them..

Princess: do you think you could fall in love with her?
brother: Sure, why not? She's pretty.. It could be easy.
Princess: Thank you so much!

Really? It's like, falling in love is something as easy as baking apple pies. "Fall in love with her? Sure.. But I'm busy on saturday so Sunday'll have to do." Pretty weird don't you think?
For me, love is rare. Especially true love. And i mean the concentrated, red, melt-my-heart, love-me-to-death liquid that is found obviously in your heart. In your entire life, you might only find one person you will be willing to give that love to... Rarely two.

You may be saying: What about my family? I love them!
That is really a sort of 'diluted' love.. it is more of instinct love really. Which son hates his father to the core? Which daughter despites her mother to death? Which mother hates her child though she abandons said child. I am not kidding, even mums who abandon their children feel the love.. and obviously the guilt and pain. I am also not saying that you love your family only because you have to.. it's just not a 100% love. maybe a 90 or a 95.. rarely a 100...

Another part of my theory is this: You only get a cup of this thick crimson love in your life. your WHOLE life. Depending on the individual will the size of said cup vary. Some people may be ones who have alot of 'love' to give out. They are types who are instantly friendly, types who readily accept others who come into their lives unexpectedly. I am not saying that the love they give is 100% red syruppy goodness, they mix the love with all types of other emotions, making a kind of diluted love as i have said before. As you can plainly see, i based my theory on syrup. After all, who minds a cup of the nice drink once in a while? Syrup is sweet. THAT, is not my revelation, mind you. Syrup is nicer to drink when you add water. In that same way, Love is better accepted when mixed with a bit of other emotions. When you give your 100% to ANYONE, it also comes with pain, suffering and other not-so-nice things. If you thought love would be all suger and spice you obviously came from planet whatzammacallit.

That is pretty much my love philosophy? Enlightening? Hope so.

P.S. Just because I thot of this doesn't mean i'm in love.. I was reading the story then i came up with the theory in the bathroom. now, THAT is weird. =)

Updates

Well.. today was a blast.. like any other day.. whee.. i didn't eat much carbs.. hope that helps.. got chosen to play in the band concert.. feel indifferent. Am i weird? I think so... haiz... it's 3 minutes to my 9pm show.. of course i must watch it la.. yup.. anyways.. i guess i dun haf much to say.
playing the comp, watching tv.. bleahs... so 'much' to do eh.. i haven't even touched my heymath yet.. people even say there's more homework.. I noe one thing.
I'm dead. D-E-A-D. haiz...

gonna watch my show now.. chao.

Whee.. Phew..

I spent hours last night working on this layout.. it rocks doesn't it? lol..
hey.. don't belittle me.. this blog was very plain when i started okay.. i added the marquee.. the words.. the pictures.. it took me about 3 hrs to complete... haha..
Whosh! I am soo tired.. but it was worth it.. now i can go on to making blog skins! Whee!!
Ok.. I'm going to start on an entry mb later.. gonna 'enjoy' the fruit of my labour first. haha!
I still think this layout rocks.. whee!!

P.S. I can do html blogskins for people.. the only thing i need now is adobe photoshop! And since this IS the christmas season.. *hint hint*

Bored.

'Eenie, Meenie, Miny Moe' Who is this guy Moe and why is he so eenie, meenie and miny?

You may be asking me what the hell is that... well then i shall reply u wif a swift 'oh shut up.'
haha! This is a quote from the best show i think i ever watched. For those guys who have been with Nickelodeon since it premiered on cable tv, you would know where this came from... or not... Its actual origin(i hope) was on All That; a show about a couple of crazy kids acting out funny sketches and hilarious stunts. It is still showing on Nick.. only the kids are different.. my guess is either the original stars grew too old... or they just got fired period.
This particular quote was in one of my favourite sketches... 'Vital Information by Loribeth Denburg'. She was hilarious and very quirky... Loribeth along with other stars like Kenan Thomson are the original stars on All That... Even tho i still luv watching that show.. A part of me will always miss the original...

Yukky Bloggie Stuffs.

Like.. I was suppose to be tagging earlier.. but unfortunately.. my brother decided it was 'Let's disturb stephanie!' time.. so i had to bail on writing then... anyways it was the second bro.. not the 'You shdn't eat at all if you can help it' older one.. haiz.. brothers.. they shd be called 'Pains'.
Anyway the first part of the entry was on All That... I just felt bored.. yup.. so there..
Speaking of pains..[im a jumpy sorta gurl, aren't i?] my bro pushed on my wrists' pressure points.. they were hurting like hell which explains the ice in the towel i haf next to me...[u can't even see it, can u?] So yea.. boring day.. i did my usual stuff.. woke up at 6.45 [actually i lazed ard till 7 b4 my eyes were fully open] to go jogging with mum.. man.. i hate jogging.. but i appreciate a fit body.. the latter kinda overrules the former duncha think? Yupp.. crazy world i live in.. my mum's threatening me now.. like.. 'Steph, no exercise, no chauffeur to drive u at school..' oh geez... great.
Meanwhile, I got into Drama.. good thing? bad thing? I haf no freaking idea.. ain't life just marvelous? Whee.. so anyways.. after that came the usual.. tv.internet.tv.internet. oh yea.. an hr's break for food of course.. im going au natural on meals.. slabbing on layers of tomatoes and lettuce for my breakfast sandwiches with only a single slice of meat to even everything out..
Oleh..
My parents think it's good of course.. wow.. veggies? cut down on carbs? YAY STEPHIE!!
Me? I'm just struggling not to ransack the fridges for stuff to fill my tummy.. disgusting.. Did i mention that Im still growing.. a quote frm dear ol' mum.. 'U can't diet yet.. too young.." A week later, she just stares at my plate... 'Steph? U should stop eating rice altogether..=)' ok.. she didn't say that... but it was on the borderline of 'Steph, stop eating and starve.' Same goes for the whole family..
Talk about Ironic.. they say 'Steph, eating too much isn't healthy.' 5 minutes after dinner they ransack the cupboard for chips. I'm sorry.. am i missing something here? Wow.. a whole load of talk about poor ol' me.. i haven't even grow out of the baby fat yet! Excruciatingly delightful, isn't it?
So wow.. Im pretty much done.. can't wait for HP:GOF to get out in cinemas.. im just dying to watch it.. literally.. haiz.. ok now.. I have to go..
For 6frangi gurls of '04.. pls visit the blog website...
And tagg my blog!!
Adios!

P.S. the blog is http://6fr2004-rox.blgospot.com... can't wait for 6th December!

Unfortunately... it's friday...

You know? I'm beginning to hate Saturdays.. It's ok.. it's a holiday thing.. it'll pass..
The only reason i ain't fond of saturdays come from the fact that there's band..
ok.. so i'm not as passionate as my bro at it.. but still.. im quite fine abt it..
only last saturday.. aft the whole incident.. im not too sure.. haiz..
i was thinking of quitting.. den i thot of my cca points.. den i thot of my bro and the ways in which he wld kill me.. den i stop thinking...
Yup.. I'm pretty much there where my bros are concerned.. not hoping for a knuckle sandwich thank you..
Besides.. I haf my Rite of Enrolment to worry abt... as if i haf absolutely nth else in the world to think of.. Stupid Annie and her stupid rules.. aagrh! Soo.. irritated.. I shan't get pissed.. cuz i had a good day 2day and i dun wanna ruin it by getting pissed.. bad karma n' all.. :)

Today...
Well.. to summarise it all.. I went to Orchard Cineplex with Anne and Joanie to watch Sky High...
To go into details...
ok.. We took the train to orchard but ended up losing our way.. in the end... we had to hitch a taxi to get to the cinema..
after we bought tics.. the trio went to KFC to eat popcorn chicken, cheese fries and drink stuff... joan paid for that.. -i paid for taxi-
Then we walked around abit till the neoprint shop opened.. anne paid for one round of neoprints.. -we took two rounds- it was pretty fun larrhs...
After that.. we bought movie snackies and went movie-watching!
Sky High's pretty cool.. It's abt dis boy who has no powers in the beginning of the show.. but he shd haf powers cuz' both his parents r like the world greatest super heros!
anyway u have to catch it!!
so yea... I guess it time 4 me to chao..
Luv Ya!

Happy holidays! [[ or not.. wateva makes u happy.. ]]

Hey everyone! I am Tat Sam Bong! and Confiucius say 'You go to jail, bad boy!'
woah now.. ok.. haha..getting a tad loony.. whoo...

The Apologies
Sorry for not blogging.. too busy.. but now it's the hols.. soo yea.. it's fine now.. =) I'm also sorry for all the things i did in the year 2005.. [trust me.. there'll be more things to come since the yr ain't over..] OKAY FINE! I'm sorry I did that thing that time.. the thing with the things and the stuff... ok? I'm sorry! [ haha.. if u still dunno.. the thing with the stuff? doesn't exist.. ]

Updates
- I have a concert coming up! TKGSSB concert to be clear... 29th Dec @ VCH.. hopefully.. details will come...
- I'm starting on a 'Be Fitter' thing.. REALLY hope it works.. hahars..
- Turning Sec 2 next yr.. Pray 4 me as i work harder next year.. haiz..
- Someone close to me recently passed on.. u can ask me if u want...[but dun be too direct lar]
- I downloaded a whole 'wardrobe' of songs.. haven't done that since... last yr? Yay Me!
- Lastly.. Happy Holidays Everyone!! [from moi.. to you..]

Sweet Fourteen...
Hey! I'm thinking of having a pool side party next year... Yupps!! Is it a good idea? Tagg or contact me on that! Sweet Fourteen.. weird.. but cool.. hahars!!

Shows I watched
= Tong Xin Yuan 2 is a bit better than the first one i guess.. could be better tho.. haha.. hmm.. today's epi had me wondering.. is reality really that predictable?
= I decided to turn into an avid Star Idol watcher! Anyone catch the first epi? Haha! Those people that tried out really made me laugh!! Esp. those who made fools of themselves.. no offense.. just good clean.. laughter?
= Amazing Race anyone? Haiz.. When i heard that the Gaghan family was out [ too lazy 2 watch the ending so asked my mum who already watched it..], i was soo sad! not that i thot they wld win.. with 2 lil' kiddies in the grp.. the chances weren't exactly springing.. Anyways the only reason i rooted for them was b'cuz us 'lil' kiddies' had 2 stick 2gether.. lol..
= Ripley's Believe or not... soo cool.. yet sometimes it disturbs me.. i was watching the late night one..[only cuz' i COULD sleep late tho i was freakin' tired..] and it really freaked me out! haha.. a guy actually makes art by vomitting on his canvas! talk about Gross!!

Other Stuff
* I'm going to watch Sky High tml and Harry Potter on the 18th.. wow! I'm soo excited!! haha! esp. abt harry potter.. but i heard that sky high's a pretty cool show too..
* I'm probably going to malaysia or something like that.. yar.. haha
* Band's ok.. a bit stress-filled.. but.. ok..

Bye then.. =)
Ok! dat's it! I have to go now! Hope you guys haf great hols! I dunno when im gonna blog again.. too lazy larrhs.. haha.. ok! dat's it! see you kiddies laterr...