Gotta be somebody

My brothers are so annoying. How I can love them still is BEYOND me. Sometimes, I love them wayy too much than they deserve.

My message today was:
that it's your heart that knows who loves you, not your ears or eyes. Listen to the words, and you can be fooled. Look at the actions, and you can be fooled. Feel deeply into your heart, and then you will know the truth. Who makes your heart soar now?

It's really driving me nuts. Those long conversations I have with him are making it very hard for me. I feel like I should just stop talking to him altogether. Don't pick up his calls, don't call him.
I'm really trying to stop. But I can't! How can I when untangling the string is ALMOST impossible.. PLUS it just GOT worse because I found another tangle. ANOTHER ONE. Because, apparently, the tangles present are not enough... noooo..

Only, it's not as simple as a phone call, is it?

Anyway, I had tremendous fun yesterday. You know? I never thought I'd have fun playing with lanterns again. Tammy was right, I SHOULD embrace the child within more. Well, actually, I thought I was doing it wayy too much for my own good. *shrug*

I met Belle in church at 7 to do math. Only, SHE started telling people about her experiences at Ms A. Ang's wedding, so she didn't really study much. Okay, I didn't either. I was too busy laughing everytime she recounted her 'adventures'. Well, I tried. Hanging out with Belle was awesome. I love it when we get high together and do the stupidest things. I missed that.

Walked to ECP with Sharon, Desiree Khng, Bernie, and Bernie's boyfriend and little sister. We walked the long way, which when you think about it was cool, except for the fact that I was a bit worried that we couldn't find the underpass, so I got a bit worried, which kinda affected my atmosphere a bit.

Reached ECP and found the other group, (Andrew, Belle, Alex Boy, Brian, Raymond) and they were still discussing stuff, so we decided to wander off to the sea area to give them some peace. Suddenly, Belle shouted 'Steph! There got cockroaches!' And of course, I screamed. We ALLL screamed. (Cept Bernie's boyfriend.) and RAN. HAHAHA. It was like a comedy or something. The guys started laughing at us. Which is NOT cool.

I think the BEST part of the day was the SPARKLERS! That is ONE thing I'll never outgrow. We made the word 'Youhf', which was SO awesome... And I did the 'O', which was... easy. HAHA. Then we had jump-shots! OMG. HAHA. It was like the best youth moments all in one day mann.. But I think the jumpshots quite fail lah. HAHAHA. But it was fun! Especially when Alex went '1, 2, 3..' and we all RAN towards him. He was soo stunned. HAHA. And Brian said Andrew looked like he wanted to hantam Alex boy. HAHAHA.

We walked back to church and called Steph to do the Jesus cheer! I'm gonna miss her. I almost cried when she called me in the bus that evening. And then Brian entertained Belle and I with his 'ho-me-ma-de pi-ne-ap-ple ta-rt-s' and various 'laughing techniques'. I laughed so hard my stomach hurt so bad. Brian is damn funny lahh.

Today, I met up with Nat! I was so happy cuz' I really hadn't seen her in a very long time. We talked and talked a lot. I really missed her. I miss our sleepovers. I wanna have one soon!!

Well, this is another week gone. And my life sometimes feels like it's passing me by..

But I count the blessings I have. My darling talkatives, my wondeful church friends, my girlfriends in class, my Daffodils clique, my lovely friends from school, my beautiful family, my love for God.

There is no other as blessed as I am.