But with you, I feel again

I'm slowly dying inside.

A proper relationship is extremely hard to deal with. Especially when you're in your honeymoon period and it's supposed to be fun and happiness and constant snuggles and giggles.

But it's hard when I'm supposed to be revising for my exams (which I am currently NOT doing) and he has exams too which are in a few days and all I want is for him to come over and be with me, but I can't. Because that would be massively selfish of me.

And I feel like a complete bitch because he's texting me telling me how much fun he's having out with his mates and while I reply with 'yay!' and 'so glad you're enjoying yourself!' I can't help but think 'But what about me! :('

This is not to say that he can NEVER have fun with his mates. I'm really not all that unreasonable. But it might be nice to maybe drive down a bit to see your girlfriend for a while, especially since you've not seen her in a bit. And then if you want to go crazy with your mates, fine.

Okay I am becoming absolutely mental. It's just that we're still trying to get to know each other, and it's hard enough as it is.

Okay I just need to relax and start fucking studying, for fuck's sake.