It's alive with the beating of young hearts.

I went to his Facebook profile today. And all I could feel was disgust that I ever let him near me.

I rarely think about him anymore. Which is such a strange transformation from only a few weeks ago.

I suppose I am truly over him. And I know that any lingering feelings I had over the past few weeks was because I felt lonely.

I no longer feel lonely.

Yes, I am still single. But I have great friends around me. And I don't really need much else.

About J though.. We've proper known each other for 3 weeks.

We're only friends, but every time I talk to him I want more. And when I see him, it only escalates the feeling.

He challenges me. But not always. It's bickering but at the end of the day, when he sees that I've been pushed to my limit, he stops and gives me a hug and says he's sorry.

He showed me that today.


He annoys me. But only in ways that he knows I know he's kidding. And he does it in such a cheeky way I can't help but laugh too.

He's smart, but not arrogantly so. He's cute, and goofy, and sweet, and adorable.


We decided to be only friends. But I wonder if we could stay that.

Again, I need to pray for patience.

I shall not ruin this with insane rushing. Not this time. I will do this right.

And if it's meant to be, it's meant to be.