And we'll have the scars to prove it.

All the planning, the tears, the craziness.

It eventually comes down to something. Most of us wish it would be something good.

I'm lucky that it was.

This weekend may have been extremely tiring and crazy, but it was worth it.

I wanted to cry when camp ended. What I missed, however, was the joy on the campers' faces when they played my games. I was too busy to stop and notice it.

If I saw it, I would've cried. Then and there.

I cried during the PnW session because it was then that I realised that everything that I've done, everything I've planned, sacrificed, cried for, stressed for.. It was for the campers. For God.

I only REALISED it then. That I did ALL this because I really loved God. And I wanted all my campers to do the same. I wanted THEM to love God as much as I do.

And that was probably the reason I took up the 'job' of being Games Head for camp. The reason which I forgot along the way, during the planning and the running up and down, not being able to concentrate on any one thing.

Reading my affirmations lit my face up. Campers wrote to me, which was surprising cuz' I didn't think I'd get a lot of affirmations this year.

I'm glad I decided to take on the role this year.

I'm glad I got the experience and the amount of lessons I've learnt from this.

I'm glad that my very capable games comm, Azriel, Ryan and of course, my darling Belle, was there to make sure I didn't die.

Azriel, for his constant reassuring that everything was going to be okay. Even though I didn't believe him for the most part, everything DID turn out okay. He's my seer. I love him. :)

Belle, because she did as much work as I did. Even though she didn't completely almost go bonkers like I did, she was there to ensure I didn't break down. She handled everything I couldn't. Even though I got mad at her a lot because of the little things, she came through for me. Without her, I wouldn't last through camp.

I also need to thank the whole of camp comm. They were there from the beginning, and in my opinion, we all really did work well with each other.

Alex, because he was the one making sure I was always on the right track. He had so much stress and yet still managed to be there whenever I needed him. And the talks we had, whether good or bad. :)

Pete, because he did all the grown-up thingies that I didn't/couldn't/didn't know how to do. Like come up with all the timings for the programme so that we all had something to work with. And listening to me rant about all my problems. And making sure I didn't go berserk.

Nana, because she had to deal with my logistics nonsense and watch me go over the budget, again and again. And for being extremely nice about it. And for not getting angry when I didn't come through for her. And basically for being so cute during camp and always being there and being such a darling. Without her, my games would have nothing to work with.

Sharon, because she provided all the help she could after pubs was done. And all the advice she gave from being games head last year helped SOO much.

Manny, because he kept making sure I had a smile on my face the whole time. And because he's my older brother, being annoying and caring all at once. :)

I will definitely do this again.

But not any time soon.

I'm too tired.

I just slept for 16 hours. :)

xoxo