I was clueless. Well, not really.. The truth was there, just not for me to go exploring with. And I had thought that everything was fine.
And then the big blow came this morning. I was really having a normal, not-much-feeling-to-begin-with day, this blew my guts down to smithereens.
I mean, with the whole shenanegan happening last year, I thought it would smooth over by now.. Guess not.
Dione is right, I should concentrate on my studies and not care anymore. After all, I'm doing my O'levels for me, not they. But everyone's life should be filled with balance right? Not all study! And how the hell am I supposed to concentrate when I know somewhere, people are shooting daggers at me because I apparently say a little too much.
You know what? I give up. I don't care anymore. I'll just become the next talking point in class. The one where everyone goes "OMG, there she is! Better not get her in my group leh.. Aiyoh." Sigh.. Why is it the only people truly accepting me for who I am are friends I made 10 years ago? Am I really that destined to live my life shunned away from girls because they are way too sensitive for MY sarcasm?
Well, screw me for not being a boy, huh. My brothers are so much more worse than me and they can make friends lasting lifetimes. Why can't I??
As the song goes, High school's a bitch.
This is a girl. This is her blog. That's pretty much the gist of where you are now on the internet.
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