whatever.

Hmm.. it's currently 1500hrs... I'm just chilling out now... I really have no idea what to do now...

I tried to force sleep again this morning.. it's been happening soo often.. maybe there's really something wrong with me... sighs... anywaes.. i awoke at 0830 because, no matter how hard i tried, i couldn't close my eyes and slumber.. it's like.. soo frustrating, ya noe!

I want to upload some pics.. thing is.. I dunno what to upload.. plus.. im too freaking lazy anyways.. maybe I should just spend the rest of hols sitting on this stupid chair.. GAH. except i have band and crap.. and the Jap trip.. and i need to use the restroom at certain intervals.. and sleep.. GAH. BAD IDEA ):

It seems like everyone I know is watching ( or have watched) goong.. i would have too.. but then it started during exams time.. and after that I just couldn't be bothered.. so yea.. guess I'm one who doesn't follow the crowd.. oh well.. at least im unique..

GAHH. sometimes it's not a good thing to be special.. unique.. sometimes u just wanna be an unknown person living in non-existence on earth.. sometimes u'd wish no one knew you except those who HAVE to. Sometimes..

I hate attention. It's alright at times.. but too much is bullshit. I get alot of attention.. whether it be my physical attributes or just my whacky persona.. i get WHOA lots of it.. I guess I could be a little less overshowing.. but it's just me, y'noe.. i can't help it..

Especially if some people think ur craving all the attention.. GOOD HEAVEN'S.. if you want it soo bad.. i can give it to you.. FOC! Sighss... To feel like no one knows you ever existed is like crap.. To feel like people know you WAYY too much is BULLcrap. That's it..

okay.. this entry is WAYY too emo. but what the hey. if you don't like any of it, leave now. and don't come back. This is my life. I say what I want, when i want, and where. And if it's illegal to do so.. then bite me.

Haiz.. i guess im feeling way too bored. when i feel that.. I always get soo emotional..GAHH. I hate it sometimes..

Ok.. i shall leave you with the lyrics to Blue's If you come back.. so you can sing-a-long to it if you want.. (:

P.S. U dun need to tell ANYONE u sang.. it's ok X)

BLUE - If you Come Back
(Come on) Yeah (Can you feel me?) Baby can you feel me? (I got something to say. Check it out)

For all this time, I've been loving you girl, oh yes I have
And ever since the day you left me here alone I've been trying to find, oh the reason why

So if I did something wrong please tell me I wanna understand Cos I don't want this love to ever end

And I swear, if you come back in my life I'll be there till the end of time, oh yeah And I swear, I'll keep you right by my side
Cos baby you're the one I want, oh yes you are

I watched you go, taking my heart with you, oh yes you did
Every time I tried to reach you on the phone Baby you're never there, girl you're never home

So if I did something wrong please tell me I wanna understand Cos I don't want this love to ever end No, no, no ,no

And I swear, if you come back in my life I'll be there till the end of time, oh yeah And I swear, I'll keep you right by my side
Cos baby you're the one I want, oh yes you are

Maybe I didn't know, how to show it
And maybe I didn't know, what to say
And this time I won't disguise, then we can build our lives
So we can be, as one

I swear, if you come back in my life I'll be there till the end of time, oh yeah
And I swear, I'll keep you right by my side
Cos baby you're the one I want, oh yes you are And I swear, if you come back in my life I'll be there till the end of time, oh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah (Fade out)