Come out with things unsaid,

I suppose I'm back at square one. A-gain.

It just seems like a never-ending battle for me. But I suppose at the end of the day, it's my own fault for not being more discerning.

Okay so right now, I have too many things in my life to look forward to, so I'm not really gonna dwell on this too much.

Just keep my chin up and walk on through.

I'll be fine. :)

Stuck in her daydream, been this way since 18.

I do think I think too much.

(^LOL)

Mally is back from Jordan which made me kinda exciting because I can't wait to see him again.

But maybe he doesn't feel the same way?

When I told Kammy, she replied with 'I thought you said he was shy?'

Yeah okay, she was right. But I mean... I'd at least he'd be a bit more excited to talk to me?

Maybe he's just really busy. After all, he has a lot of work to catch up with.

Okay, I really need to stop being all.... crazy.

Even if he only wants to be friends, he's a really nice guy so I wouldn't mind being friends.

Maybe.

Okay, 9am in the morning is a crazy time for me. =/

We found love in a hopeless place

The title of my blog is 'Write With Songs'. This is because all of my post titles are lyrics from songs. At least for the last couple of years. (Maybe since 2010?)

Sometimes, it's a line that seems to fit with my current mood, or the current theme of the post. Most of the time though, it's what I happen to be listening to while writing the post. Or whatever I have stuck in my head. And hence, that's why, today's title is such.

I really am not a huge fan of Rihanna. But this song's in Calvin Harris' new album and it's on repeat right now.

I do love a lot of genres of music. From jazz, to pop, to rock, to indie, to the 'oldies'.

Anyway, tomorrow, I fly back home.

It's been an extremely fun holiday back. I got to finally meet my adorable niece and The Usuals were all reunited for a record-breaking number of times since we all went our separate ways.

I can't wait to be back in the UK and see what lies in store for me. :)

These are the good old days.

An early 21st birthday celebration. :)

And a puke-stained blanket to show for it. :(

Who's gonna save the world tonight?

Firstly, I would like to wish everyone reading this a very happy New Year. It's 2013, everyone! You know what this means, right???? Yeah, no, I don't either.

Well, I'm sure the new year will bring with it joy and everything else.

I just finished my application to Linklaters for their summer programme. Here's my fingers crossed that I do manage to get a place. I realise it's wayy too competitive but at least I try.

I've got plenty of other applications to complete, 4 of which I need to do before I return home. The rest I can wait till my exams are over before I start them.

It's pretty tedious though. Most of the form is the same. But because there is no copy and paste option, I have to fill it in manually, one by one.

In other news, I'm getting extremely excited for my birthday party on Saturday. It's gearing up to be quite a night. Plenty of my good friends are scheduled to arrive. And of course, the lunch affair with my  family. Right. Well, I better get started on my exam revision proper.

I'm back in the UK in less than 2 weeks. That's really quick. :O (I made the mistake of adding a 'yay' behind that statement in front of my mum and she got kinda annoyed.)

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I'm editing this at 9.30pm Singapore time. (My blog's still in UK time soo.... yeah.)

I'm halfway through studying express trusts and I've been taking too many breaks in between.

Anyway, I realise I forgot to write this down. So future me can see this. (And when I say future me, I mean the me in a few weeks' time.) I've decided that it's probably a waste of time with M. I mean, a few messages on Christmas day and that was it. After that, nothing. I mean, if someone really liked you, he'd kinda try to show it, wouldn't he? At least a message on New Year's Day or something. So I say I'll give him a chance... But after that... nothing. So, I mean, really. What did you think a chance meant? That I was going to jump into your arms? You wanted that chance, so obviously you're gonna have to work for it.

You see, that's what really puzzles me about M more than anything. I really, really cannot understand him. In other ways, he is a really nice guy. Good looking, sweet, blah blah. But he seems to be shooting mixed signals all over the place. The first period of a budding relationship should not be so difficult. It's sweet, and you get to know one another, and you go on dates, and feelings start to blossom. And you like the other person a lot, so you know it might turn into something. With M, I do still like him a bit. Although, not as much as before, definitely. When he texts me, he's like this super sweet guy. All his words are coated in sugar and frosting, and he only has words of adoration. But then, nothing. Just. Completely ignores me. No texts, no calls. Like it doesn't matter that he doesn't text or call, or even that I don't text or call.

Okay, here's me admitting that, like every other girl, I do get happy, maybe even excited, when the guy I like texts me. But how I (and most girls) know he really likes me, is when he can't go on long without texting again. And again. (And obviously, if I like him, I reply.) Which, in this case, M doesn't do. So hmm.. does he like me? Or not? Somehow I get the feeling that perhaps he just wanted another chance because he just wanted to date someone, anyone. He told me that he wanted a life outside of work. Maybe at that point in time, I was the only option. Well, if that's the case I don't blame him, and I'm not mad at him, but I'm definitely not gonna waste my time with him. And I hope he finds someone nice to 'have a life outside work' with. lol.